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justapicture
13 May 2013 @ 01:13 pm
Welcome to my own little place on the world wide web.

This Journal is semi-friends locked to ensure my own peace of mind.  For now that means that only some very personal entries are friends only. In the future this may also include some fanfics, but I'll give a shout out when that time comes.

If you want to get up close and personal and be my LJ friend just drop me a line and I will take your request in consideration.
 
 
 
 
justapicture
27 December 2011 @ 10:48 pm
I had a fabulous Christmas. On Christmas eve my dad's family came over and we all had dinner together (yumm). Which was really nice and chaotic, in a good way. Then on the First day of Christmas (yes, we Dutch people are awesome because we have two official Christmas days) we (mom, dad, bro) cleaned up the mess and played some board games, and ate loads of chocolate. Then the Second day of Christmas we went to my mom's parents and got presents and had dinner, which was delicious as well.

I got this from my grandparents:
* X-men first class DVD
* the latest Artemis Fowl book (which I already finished reading today)

And, because I couldn't resist I just ordered myself the remainder of my wish list, which includes:
* the book Play to kill by P.J. Tracy (mom/daughter author due who write awesome detective books)
* the DVD Pirates of the Caribbean: on stranger tides
* a compilation album (5 CDs) with some of the best songs of this century (according to a certain radio station)
* also ordered a book on the biology of cancer (because that's what I'm majoring in in college (for my Master's degree) and this book is supposed to be top notch. And my parents are paying for it as a Bachelor graduation present)

Felt a bit bad about spending so much money, but then again, the DVD and CD had some serious discount, and I don't usually spend a lot of money, so I figured could get away with it. Also donated some money to a good cause to balance it out. All in all, I'm feeling very accomplished right now. Can't wait for my stuff to get here.
 
 
mood: accomplished
 
 
justapicture
17 December 2011 @ 06:23 pm
genre: drama, romance
pairing: Zac / Ivey (OFC)
point of view: Ivey
part: 5 of 5
rating: 18+
word count: 2607

It’s only one o’clock when I get back from Tristan’s place. I had no idea how long it would take or how long I would need to recover from it afterwards, but I had expected the worst, which is why I told Zac to meet me at four. It’s needless to say that I regret that decision now that I’m home so early, and with a reasonably good mood as well. Yes, I feel guilty and like an all-round horrible person for breaking Tristan’s heart, but I know that it needed to be done and it definitely could have gone a hell of a lot worse. I’d expected to feel like royal shit and I’d imagined scenarios in which I found myself curled up in a ball crying my heart out, but the reality is that I don’t even feel like crying. I feel relieved, and more than anything I’m ready to start fresh with Zac.

But he won’t be here for another three hours, so instead I busy myselfCollapse )
 
 
justapicture
15 December 2011 @ 05:34 pm
genre: drama, romance
pairing: Zac / Ivey (OFC)
point of view: Ivey
part: 4 of 5
rating: 12+
word count: 1639

It’s noon and I’m standing in front of Tristan’s door. I’ve been standing here for a while now, because I can’t seem to make myself knock. I didn’t think it would be this hard. I know I need to do this. I know, without a shadow of a doubt, that Zac is the one I want to be with. But I hate that I have to do this to Tristan. I hate that I have to go in there and tell him that it’s over. I hate knowing that I’m going to break his heart. I don’t want to do this to him. But I know that I need to. There’s no other option. I guess that in the end there never was another option. As much as I wanted to believe that I could learn to love him the way that he loved me, deep down I knew that I never truly would.

I take a deep breath, lift my hand to the door and knock. Collapse )
 
 
justapicture
13 December 2011 @ 05:42 pm
genre: drama, romance
pairing: Zac / Ivey (OFC)
point of view: Ivey
part: 3 of 5
rating: 12+
word count: 2045

There’s a knock on my door. It’s eleven in the morning on a Sunday and I’m not expecting anyone. Tristan is out of town with a bunch of his friends for a “man-weekend”, which they apparently have once a year, and I don’t expect him to be back until late, so it can’t be him. The fact that it is Sunday rules out the possibility of a package and I’m pretty sure that it’s no one I usually hang out with, because I don’t tend to socialize without Tristan by my side to keep the conversations going. I don’t even feel like opening the door in case it is someone who expects me to socialize. I’m praying to God that it’s not one the girls who has come up with the idea that a “women-only-day” is in order on the last day of our man-less weekend. That would be hell.

I take a deep breath and open the door, figuring I might as wellCollapse )
 
 
 
justapicture
12 December 2011 @ 08:10 pm
genre: drama, romance
pairing: Zac / Ivey (OFC)
point of view: Ivey
part: 2 of 5
rating: 12+
word count: 1104

It has been a year since I’d been touring with Hanson and it has been equally long since I’d last seen or spoken to Zac. We both agreed that it would be best to cut each other out of our lives completely. That it would be best to ignore the undeniable connection that we had and try to move on. He wasn’t the kind of man to abandon his wife and we both knew that if we’d kept in touch sooner or later we would have ended up sleeping together. As much as I didn’t want to be the other woman, I also remembered that it had been nearly impossible for me to turn him down that one night in the hotel room and I knew that I wouldn’t have the strength nor the desire to do it again.

So I was moving on. Or trying to, to be more exact.Collapse )
 
 
mood: tired
music: seven nation army - the white stripes
 
 
justapicture
11 December 2011 @ 08:32 pm
I know it’s been ages since I last posted and it’s been even longer since I last posted any fanfiction, so I don’t know if anyone’s still reading this journal. But, I was reading through some old stories that I wrote, most of which were completely awful, when I came across a one-shot that I wrote a couple of years ago, which was actually pretty decent and it was simply begging me to write more. I always had a vague story line in mind, but at the time I felt like I couldn’t write it the way I wanted to and now I’m glad I didn’t, because that story line was just as awful as some of the fics I wrote then. Anyway, few weeks ago I started writing a second part to the story and from there it all came together. It’s now a five-part piece and I’m pretty pleased with how it turned out, so I thought I would share it. I hope someone’s still interested in reading it.

genre: drama, romance
pairing: Zac / Ivey (OFC)
point of view: Ivey
part: 1 of 5
rating: 12+
word count: 1335

Even as I started to regain consciousness a part of me believed I was still dreaming. It was impossible for the feeling of those soft warm lips against the skin of my neck to be real. And yet I knew they were. The heat spreading through my body was too real to only be a dream and my heart thumped a little louder at the realization. After all the nights I had dreamed about this I could barely believe that it was really happening and I wanted nothing more than to surrender myself to him. But I couldn’t and I knew this, but even though I knew this it took me a lot longer to pull away from him than it should have.

“Don’t,” I muttered weakly, but he didn’t listen.Collapse )
 
 
mood: accomplished
music: my body - young the giant
 
 
justapicture
17 October 2011 @ 05:23 pm


Tumblr anyone?

seennothingyet




 
 
music: radioactive - kings of leon
 
 
justapicture
05 June 2010 @ 03:20 pm
I really needed to share this song with all of you, because it makes me extremely happy. It sounds like sunshine and summer!

It's called countdown by Jupiter One [click for download].

it started with a minute of your favourite soundCollapse )
 
 
mood: headache
 
 
justapicture
15 May 2010 @ 05:55 pm
Went to see Eskimo Joe this Wednesday with my mom. They absolutely rocked, as they did the previous two times they were here. They had so much energy and were having so much fun, it was so good to watch. Was a bit surprised that I didn't have a soar throat at the end from singing along to all the songs. They played my favourite song too and I'll admit, I had a bit of a fangirl moment and totally squealed when I realized they were going to play it. They were just so good! Can't wait to see them again when the new album comes out. Hope it'll be quick! Seriously you guys need to check out this band!!

Also, I love how much they love Amsterdam! (even though it's all covered in Rubbish at the moment)

Last random note; apparently the recipe to looking like you're in a band is growing a beard and/or wearing a leather jacket. Just so you know.
 
 
mood: tired - worked hard
music: black fingernails, red wine - eskimo joe